"Being 23 is like being out in orbit with every dream just barely out of reach."
-Jessica
If i am being completely honest....
I would have to tell you that being 23 has been the best year of my life....
There are moments when I think back to the years of friends who left me, people who back-stabbed me, and those who just plain didn't care about anything but themselves. When I think about them....I realize I don't ever want to be them.
I live my life trying to be encouraging to others. It's like God pointed at me and said Jessica....THIS IS YOUR PURPOSE. To make people feel welcomed and wanted.
Robb & I have always been the best of friends. talking about any and everything. But this year I have special girlfriends who I feel I can share my heart with. These are the girlfriends who.....sure we have our different lifestyle choices......
BUT THAT IS THE BEAUTY IN OUR FRIENDS.
We don't have to like the same things all the time, in fact being with a friend you have nothing in common with can be an awesome learning experience.
If we were just friends with people who are like us, that's our way of saying we have nothing left to learn. That we know it all. That we have no need for change, & lets be honest with one another, change is one of the best thing that can happen in our 20's. Changing where we live, where we work, who we love.....most things are still temporary in our twenties.
WE still have the time we need to figure out who we are.
I was talking with a friend of mine late last night about life. And I was thinking about how I was 23 years old, turning 24 this year.... I'm almost 10 years past 15..... What an overwhelming thought. At 15 I thought I knew how life worked. I thought I had things all figured out & when I moved out things would certainly just come to me.
What a childlike notion. What naivety. Little did i know that I would feel so out of control...being 23 is like being out in orbit with every dream just barely out of reach....like stars in the universe. The light from my dreams can be seen from earth but in reality the dream is a lot of hard work and perseverance away.
Like walking through sand....The weight of all our parents hopes and dreams weigh us down from doing what we want.... we want to run, we want to find our talent and embrace it. But we have to learn to let go of expectations and sometimes striking out on our own is the only way we have that real life experience. For some it can be found in a tragedy....for others in nature, for some....it won't be found until after children are grown & we hit 40....
In our twenties is not always the time we realize and find that. In life we learn to look at what we like, and what we don't. Maybe we go in our parents footsteps and realize later in life that we don't like what we do for a living.... so we change it...Change should always be welcomed, & life can NEVER be controlled.
I hope this made you think about your life. When was your Ah Ha moment? Post it on my facebook page or on the blog! :) Much LOVE!
-jessica
"my comfort zone is the most dangerous place to live"
- Jessica Wallace
Going to the beach with my sister was fantastic.
It was just the day get away that I needed.
Talk about walking the beach & taking pictures to my hearts content. It was like a dream day. My sister is the perfect companion for this type of day, she appreciates a good photo session as much as I do.
We walked around & if we saw something we wanted to photograph we did! For many people such a luxury will not be seen as such. But for me & my sister, walking & taking pictures together is the best way to spend our day.
The ocean made me think a lot about life & how small I am in the great scheme of things. God created all of the beauty in the world for our enjoyment. How blessed are we? & how greater still is it to think that heaven is still greater than the things we see & touch on earth? Hubby started a new job this week, & we have been struggling this past month more than usual to make ends meet. I am realizing more & more that I do not want to be a waitress for the rest of my life, & I am recognizing that my comfort zone is the most dangerous place to live. When we get comfortable the devil is winning. He takes pride in those who live life comfortable in their problems. WHY would you ever want to stop dreaming or seeing more for yourself & your family? Hubby & i have successfully had our family meeting two weeks in a row! It is a great feeling to be meeting on purpose. Not like casual conversation .....but intentional corrective communication. I know that it will help us a lot in the long run. What adventures have you gone on this spring? Or do you have any big trips planned for the summer? I went to the Hempstead graveyard today and took tons of photos. You may see some of them here soon!
- Jessica Wallace
Marriage wisdom from the devotional I do every morning from Proverbs 31 ministries.
It's GREAT advice and I love it. I want it posted on my forehead so I always remember to treat him right.